What if?

I moved my hands slowly next to her.
My little finger touched her palm.
She didn't react but my vision started to blur.
I held her hand and tried to become calm.

"What if, I hadn't boarded this bus?
What if, I had just gone to my home?
What if, I hadn't met you in my life?
What if, I fail to tell you how I feel?"

These were the questions,
I wanted to ask her.
But, I couldn't even speak a word.
I couldn't even figure out what was the thing that was between us.

She playfully continued talking.
I continued dreaming.